This past month has been a bit hectic for me and adjusting to living in a new place. After reflection and slowing down I realized how tense my body was. It was in this moment that I realized that sometimes, I move way too fast. I'm constantly on the move but yesterday I got the opportunity to do do some mindfulness and do some pretty awesome stretches. I feel like being a SAHM is a demanding job. The days could feel so long but what has helped me has been getting my son used to his routine. Everyday at 3PM I put him down for a nap and he typically naps for about three hours. I have realized that using my time intentionally is very important because while he naps; I take 10 minutes to myself and do mindfulness, stretch, or journal. I notice that it makes a really big difference in my body and how I feel through out the day. It's important when you take care of others that we manage and we take care of ourselves too. If you could use sometime for yourself here are some videos I recommend: 

I felt like I started the month of May running. We had so many changes and blessings that I am forever grateful. Some of the more challenging things, I have ever faced as a parent, has been trying to want more for my child. What I mean as "more", I mean to have a better environment for him to grow in. I was born and raised in the Bay Area and I have realized how drastically things have changed in the Bay Area. From the Education, Cost of Living, and the overall quality of life has drastically changed. My husband and I were faced with the choice of possibly moving when we were struggling to find a place to live and not have to sacrifice a few things like having me being able to stay home to take care of our child. For us, it is important for me to stay home and take care of our son when he is developing. 

I have always felt like an old soul on this plane of existence. I always questioned my existence. I experienced a lot of trauma through out my child hood. I realize now that the trauma that I had to endure was part of my journey and purpose. I always thought of myself as someone whom did not want to fit into everyone else's standards. In my early adult life, I knew that I came to this plane of consciousness to experience freedom from generational curses. Deep down in my heart, I knew that I needed to do something different. God has shown me every step of the way what direction I was meant to be on and to understand why things needed to occur the way they did. 

What I've learned is that Motherhood is definitely a journey not a destination. When I became a mother, I think it was something I wasn't ready for and certainly nothing could prepare me. Motherhood changed my life in the most beautiful way. When my baby was born, I was working full time and intended to go back. However, I still felt the urge to want to stay home with my baby and continue to work to help provide. It wasn't until 9 months later that I realized how depleated, tired, and stressed I was from trying to do everything all at once. It was then that I decided that I'd be a SAHM. This wasn't an easy decision but it was the best decision. I reflect back to that decision and it was five months ago. I definitely do not regret it because I've grown more attached to my little one. I think that society now a days makes mothers feel guilty for wanting to stay home but there is nothing with staying home. Mothers play an important role when children are developing and overtime I have realized how important that is. You see, I didn't have the best childhood growing up. I know my parents tried the best that they could with what they had but I went through a lot of trauma. I was always aware that I didn't want to pass the trauma on to my children. I wanted to do better for them. 

Ahh my first post! Thank you for joining me on my new blog. This has been in works for a while. Some of you may know me from my former blog and Podcast "Gaby's Light" where I talked about new aged spirituality and many other topics. However, a couple months back. I decided that I wanted to re-launch a new blog dedicated to a journey that I embarked on with motherhood. My aim is to create and nurture a platform for mothers through sisterhood.